bitter, bitter and bitter

i have cried for 2 nights...
dun know why...
just can accept too much sadness...
very very upset...
i dun know why...
突然发了很大的脾气，把家里的东西往地上丢...
就好像一个神经婆酱...
but i dun know why i be like tat,
having bad mood...
wrote this to someone before
"哭了，却没人听见，感觉很不好受，很辛苦，很讨厌"
thanks to someone who care me...
thank you!
but sometimes...
i won sad a while de...
because it's too deep for me...
never being like tat before...
hope i ll be ok soon...=(

空虚。。。寂寞。。。

今天突然觉得很空虚。。。很寂寞。。。

meiyu said smtg to me today...
"情花"
she talked to me about this today...
huh...
smtg confusing...

空虚。。。寂寞。。。

birthday!

i m 18th liao lo!
wishes from frens...
presents from frens...
"cubit" from frens...
pictures from frens...
all from frens...

thanks for all your wishes, presents, "cubit" ...
haha, actually i was very angry...
but sometimes fren ma...
小事化无...
nvm la...
我很大量的！（好假）

feeling...

haha, i have already finished this 2000pcs of puzzle!
nice right?

these few months,
i think about this every day,
dun know why...
meiyu asked me,
"do u love anyone?"
i said, "it's not love, but just feel..."
dun know how to say about it,
just "feel"
when i meet him,
that's a "feel"...
anyway, it's just feel,
not really "love"...
maybe you all ll think that waileng is a sot sot person or
something like tat la,
but actually i m still a little girl,
i m still have someone that can make me ...... him...
so, please jianyoong,
dun call me "elephant" again,
and i m still a girl...
a little girl!

我回来啦！

i m back,
so, miss me?
actually i wanted to upload a lot of pictures,
but it's failed.
so it might be next time lo,
have to wait again.

just finished my spm,
no holiday, no any special festival to celebrate...
i just had 14 days of holiday...
very sienz,
very bored,
very wu liao...

i think i won have a good result on my spm,
i din study hard,
din do well,
din...
anyway, i dun think i ll get a good result from there...
now i only know that we have appreciate wat we have all the time,
now see, i din appreciate the thing i have,
finally i lost all mine,
especially my study... :(
too bad..

after that,
i had a camp.
very nice,
although it's very tired,
i just slept for 10 hours for 4 days!
how could it be?
finally, i slept for 12 hours when i reached home...
oh! really very tired!!!!!!!

i had a great time there...
i have a good team,
good competition,
good frens,
good...
everything be the best in the camp...
i think i ll join the camp again in year 2010...
right?
will you with me?

haha,
so u better wait for my pics la!
i hope that next time the system ll be ok...
dun be failed again...
so i can let u see wat i did in this short hol!

came back from the clinic...

今天，我终于去看医生了！

aiyo, of cos that's not a good thing for me.

not fever, not cough, not flu...

it's about my nose...

my little nose...

我的鼻子面对一个蛮大的问题。。。

之前，我不能用鼻子呼吸，以致只能用嘴巴呼吸。。。（危险吧！）

然后，呼吸有困难。。。

直到昨天，mummy 就讲要带我去看医生，

好咯，今天就去看了。。。
首先，我就跟医生讲我来找他的原因咯，

他就几个问题，就叫护士，给了我一个东西，

叫我吸一大口气，然后快快吐出来，

那是一个仪器来的，有数字的，我喷到差不多有350吧，

那个医生叫我喷到500，我怎样都做不到。。。

然后，他就跟我讲，

我呼吸有问题，人家用完整个肺来呼吸，我却只用一半的肺，

然后，他就把我的鼻子“撬”上来，他讲我鼻子里面的骨有问题，

本来是这样的，

然后呢，我的鼻子的骨就变成这样了，

所以呼吸酱困难，

还有很多东西啦，

他又要我怎样怎样。。。

总之，就是可怜，

可是看了医生，就要吃药咯！

本来家族遗传，

鼻子就是很敏感的，一点点毛茸茸的东西都很麻烦，

现在还要这样。。。

真可怜！